Friday, October 10, 2008

I'm F*#*ed or Really Lucky!

anyone got an extra wig or breast prosthesis or knows where I need to go to get one?

I guess all these minor details will sort themselves out eventually.

According to the Stanford tumor board, I'm looking at chemo for 2 - 3 months to shrink the tumor, then a complete mastectomy of my left breast, then a round of radiation for 6 weeks. That's if they don't find anything anywhere else - which will be determined by bonescans, catscans, blood tests, etc., etc.

I feel lucky that I got this checked out before I was dead. And to think that I thought that the real problem I had to fix was migraines...

Going over my history again and again with docs today has been really depressing and humiliating. I have been in such denial for so long.

But now I know what's in store and got directions from the specialists at Stanford who only work with breast tumors. With 80% of tumors being breast tumors though, many oncologists are breast tumor savvy anyway.

So Monday at 2:40pm is my first visit to interview an oncologist at home. I will let you know how that goes.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

The Day I Was Diagnosed with Breast Cancer

Dear Mom and Andrea,

Mom, since you're out of the country,
I'm emailing, hoping you'll check your email.
Andrea, I can't stop crying so I can't talk over
the phone.
Just letting you know I've been diagnosed with breast cancer.
Just found out an hour ago.
The radiologist says my lymph is not involved.
I have a call in to my MD to get a referral to a surgeon - which is the next step.
What a way to start the Jewish New Year.

Melissa